Howdy, dudes. Yes, I'm still alive! Still fighting the good fight. But most of my writing is elsewhere these days, and well, it's more private. Since my career, painting, is growing and taking up much of my time, I still do daily writing in order to preserve and hopefully expand my sanity and spiritual life, but it really is not very entertaining reading, even for me.
Last summer I had my first big gallery show in Toronto, and it did well. So, I'm not here much any more and I have to spend my precious morning time doing stream of consciousness writing, similar to the "morning pages" method prescribed by Julia Cameron in her useful if a bit misty-tinkly-woo-woo manual for blocked artists The Artist's Way. Interestingly enough, she is a recovering alcoholic and addict, and her method of "artistic recovery" seems to mirror 12 step work. I'm not saying she stole it, but it does have a lot of parallels. If it helps more people, more power to her.
Yes, I'm still active in OA (a twelve step program for those who have addictive habits of using food as a drug rather than a necessary substance). I have to be, in order to keep my life. Not just healthy, perhaps keep my life period. Who knows where I would be today if my therapist hadn't shoved me towards it? Blocked? Hermetic? Dead?
But I am spread pretty thin. Even if it is much, much better, life is not all sunshine and roses. I still have to "work my program". I have to phone my sponsor weekly, I still have to pray every morning to whatever life force of the universe there is that can help me keep going. I have to write, and I have to daily tell myself that I am powerless over food without the help I've been privileged to find.
Otherwise, on the net I have a website and maintain a Facebook presence to promote my business. And right now I'm doing a business tax form rather than my usual personal income tax form. That's a step, with it's own headaches... I have issues with money which more and more seem to be emotionally and mentally linked to the unhealthy patterns I am compelled to with food. I'm still going. I'm still a healthy weight, and amazingly enough, I'm in good physical shape, despite having started into some heavy menopausal symptoms over the last year.
If you're reading this because you're struggling with weight and food or bulimia, keep going, find an Overeaters Anonymous meeting. And be good enough to yourself to attend 6 meetings before you say it's not for you. It could save your life. What have you got to lose?
Pizza Hut will still be there next month. Cheers.
Last summer I had my first big gallery show in Toronto, and it did well. So, I'm not here much any more and I have to spend my precious morning time doing stream of consciousness writing, similar to the "morning pages" method prescribed by Julia Cameron in her useful if a bit misty-tinkly-woo-woo manual for blocked artists The Artist's Way. Interestingly enough, she is a recovering alcoholic and addict, and her method of "artistic recovery" seems to mirror 12 step work. I'm not saying she stole it, but it does have a lot of parallels. If it helps more people, more power to her.
Yes, I'm still active in OA (a twelve step program for those who have addictive habits of using food as a drug rather than a necessary substance). I have to be, in order to keep my life. Not just healthy, perhaps keep my life period. Who knows where I would be today if my therapist hadn't shoved me towards it? Blocked? Hermetic? Dead?
But I am spread pretty thin. Even if it is much, much better, life is not all sunshine and roses. I still have to "work my program". I have to phone my sponsor weekly, I still have to pray every morning to whatever life force of the universe there is that can help me keep going. I have to write, and I have to daily tell myself that I am powerless over food without the help I've been privileged to find.
Otherwise, on the net I have a website and maintain a Facebook presence to promote my business. And right now I'm doing a business tax form rather than my usual personal income tax form. That's a step, with it's own headaches... I have issues with money which more and more seem to be emotionally and mentally linked to the unhealthy patterns I am compelled to with food. I'm still going. I'm still a healthy weight, and amazingly enough, I'm in good physical shape, despite having started into some heavy menopausal symptoms over the last year.
If you're reading this because you're struggling with weight and food or bulimia, keep going, find an Overeaters Anonymous meeting. And be good enough to yourself to attend 6 meetings before you say it's not for you. It could save your life. What have you got to lose?
Pizza Hut will still be there next month. Cheers.
